So that's the end of that

So um, I finally told him..BGF I mean. It was more like I was having a discussion with a friend about the topic and she kept on telling me to do it, that now was the time and I couldn't leave it until too late. So naturally I thought to myself that she was right, I had to tell him. The problem is though, I'm a chicken and couldn't get the words out. So I came to the conclusion that I had to screenshot the conversation I was having with my friend and send it to him. It was the only way I felt I could do it..and to my surprise, I did. I sent it to him and to be honest, I am so incredibly proud that I did the very thing I thought I could never do. I'm so proud that, even though his response wasn't what I had in mind, at least I did it. Anyway so, he was wonderful, understanding and caring. He even said it's a good thing I told him otherwise I would have regretted not doing it. The problem is though (and I knew this, I expected this on a level) is that he doesn't want a relationship, he can't handle even himself so he definitely can't handle someone else. and I understand that. He didn't say if the feelings are or ever have been mutual but he is sorry that he ever gave me the wrong impression. To be honest, I don't really want to know if its just me that's ever had these feelings. if he had have told me how he actually feels about me, and it were to be mutual, I don't think I could move on quite as easily or quickly. Now I think, I can finally move forward without looking back at this possibility. Honestly, I'm fine, I am. BGF and I will be fine too. Our friendship is so much stronger than awkwardness or sadness. I know we'll just go back to being the same as always because a friendship with him is so much more important than any potential or non potential romance with him.